'Oh! Sorry honey', I never knew when I said the word 'honey'. He then said 'why're you calling me honey, am I your boyfriend', he jokingly said and walked away. Though it was a joke but I was heartbroken and because of that I couldn't go to where I had to go. I locked myself at home for days. I couldn't go to work and starved myself.
The following week, he texted me saying he wanted to see me, he asked me to come over to his house. I was anxious to hear what he wants to tell me. 'Does he wants to express how he feels to me? No, it's not like that, he wants to see me probably because he felt guilty of walking past me last week or he likes me, ah! Nope. He doesn't. He just wants to see me'. I kept wondering about what he wants to see me for. I headed out to his house.
'Why do you want to see me all of a sudden?' I asked.
'Nothing, I guess I should tell you something'.
'What?'
'Have a seat first'
'Okay, then what?'
'I want to tell you that I'm traveling to the States next week. I guess I should let you know '.
'So, when will you come back?' I asked acting displeased.
'Maybe, next three years or more'.
'Must you go?'
'Sure, I must, I want to go there to start a new life'.
'Why do you want to go so badly? Is it that you would die if you don't go? Answer me'. I said shouting as tears started rolling down my cheeks.
'What's wrong? You ought to be happy for me but you're crying'.
'You don't care, do you? You don't care about the pain I will have to go through. You care about your own satisfaction, you don't care about people around you. Fine, if you want to go, go! It's none of my business, you jerk!'
'Why're you suddenly shouting at me, why?'
'I love you. I want you. You jerk. I've been helding back all these days but I love you. Park In Min, I love you'.
'I understand you but I don't have such feelings for you, I'm sorry to hurt you but I don't love you'.
Without hesitation, I grabbed him and started kissing him. Our tongues tangled and went to war in our locked mouth battling madly for dominance. His lips were warm and soft. They parted slightly allowing my tongue to slip inside. Our body pressed together heatedly against the wall, breathing heavily as our lips pressed together. I could taste our shared breath, feel the thud of our combined heartbeat as we fumbled to take off one another's clothes. Warmth blossomed in my chest, sparks igniting as In Min leaned in close, lips brushing together, tentatively for the first time. Long story short, we had sex.
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I went home pleased and satisfied. Suddenly, I remembered that condom was not used. "What should I do?" I called In Min straight and told him. All he could say was 'Oh! Fuck!'


I became pregnant. I told In Min about it and his family members forced him to marry me. I was so excited because one of my dreams was to get married to someone who deflowered me. I was going to be a wife and a mother soon!
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The day came. The ceremony didn't last for half and hour. It was a traditional ceremony. I wore a red hanbok while In Min wore a blue hanbok. I was excited. After our vows were spoken , we sealed our vows by bowing and sipping wine from a gourd grown. We were pronounced husband and wife. After the wedding, In Min said that if he was to be my husband to the end. I must transfer all my properties to him and I did. I was foolish right? I was blinded by a stupid love.
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Eight months later, I gave birth to a boy. I named him "Byeong Ho", meaning 'bright'. Even though I didn't have a happy home, I loved the fact that I got married to the person I loved. Each day, In Min would beat me up, shout at me and tell me that he doesn't love me and wouldn't love me. I told Hye Ri about it, but all she could say was, 'even from the beginning, I knew something was wrong, on a normal day, we both knows that that guy doesn't love you. He was forced to marry you. I don't seem to understand you, how possibly can you have sex with someone that doesn't want you — or love you. You got pregnant to someone who doesn't know your worth. How is that right? Now, you're regretting, you ended up like this right? Aigooo! I feel sorry for you'.
'Hey, Hye Ri, how can you probably say that? How is this my fault? All I did was to love him. I gave him my virginity, why? Because I love him. I saw as an opportunity cause it comes at once'. I said weeping extensively.
'Should I advise you, Christabel? Report him to the human rights. Do you understand?'
'I can't because I love him, I can't report him. I am going to endure it to the end. That's what a wife does.'
'You are a fool! Why would I pity you in the first place? That guy is after your money, you're rich. Which guy doesn't want a rich woman? At this age, you should use your brain'.
'Okay, thanks for the advice, bye then'.
I never counted Hye Ri's words. I wish I had. A year later, In Min didn't have sex with me , but I wanted him so much. I drugged his drink and had sex with him. Don't mind me! I was blinded by a stupid love. I gave birth to my second child, his name is Do Yun which means 'correct path'. I was so satisfied not until the day I left home to get some stuffs. Returning back, I found the door locked from outside. Then I knew something was going on. I received a text message that my bank had been frauded. All my money is gone including my properties and my kids. I ran to Hye Ri and told her, she ignored me and said she warned me. That was right. She warned me. I ran to the human rights centre but they said that they couldn't do anything since all my properties are his now. I asked about my kids but they said I should sue him for child hostage. I sued him but I didn't win, the lawyer said that since my husband had all my properties, then he would be able to take care of them. I was lost and condemned! What should I do?
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